Someday I won't be a failure anymore.

I will live a life that is interesting enough to blog about again. YAY!! til then...I'll read others' blogs, and live life through their experiences. It's really depressing to live in Boise Idaho. Even before the economy took a shit and never flushed, this place was broke, and now it's like a 3rd world country. The most depressing place I have EVER lived. But all my friends and family are here...so....anyway.

Monday June 14th, 2010

static, feedback.....exhaustion. What a weekend.

Backyard Monsters

AT first I was ticked and deleted the game, but now I'm just going to build a wall, and try and keep the invaders out. (Backyard Monsters is a computer game)

MMM

Nothing makes me happier than food. And I just bought some yummy food.

Day One

Looks like the weather has changed. Perhaps I'll go mow. It might take away some of my anxiety and angst about not being employed and having a viable source of income other than plasma donation. Ten years ago I would have thought of someone living life the way I do as a complete loser. But now here I am. Everyday it's a battle of self-hatred versus hope. Hope has won every time, but I've never had much hope about anything really, so what little hope I have is fading. Every day I feel an oppressive weight pressing down further. It sucks because even when I had a job, I never had any money. So what's the point of working? The American dream is a lie, and does not come true anymore. It's all so pointless and useless. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.